Raising the Bar: On Myself
I write this blog, in hopes that I can inspire at least one person, some way, some how. I share some of my experiences and how I got through them. I don't tell people what to do or how to do it and I don't use links very often to anything. I'm not getting paid to write this blog, I do it for my passion.
As 2015 was nearing an end, I was thinking about what I want to accomplish in 2016. I'm always looking for ways to improve myself and to become better, at anything and everything that I do, in all aspects of my life.
I decided to make 2016, the year that I raise the bar on myself. I am making myself reach higher and dig deeper within myself, to fully discover my own potential. My Momma used to tell me, "You will never know what you can accomplish, until you actually try, to accomplish something".
This was my first Christmas without her and I struggled through it. It was hard and I found myself reflecting, on everything she ever taught me and all the little conversations that we had. Some of her advice, I think I never thought about, as she was saying it, because I didn't listen.
Now that my two kids are grown and on their own, I have all this time on my hands, that I never had before. There are so many things that I want to do, to achieve and I know now is the time for me to do it.
I have always been a "Movie Momma" and I love movies. I'm still working on structuring myself, as a writer. To get myself out of my lazy bad habits of not writing. I still have a battle with procrastination, on doing final re-write's. I also work a full time job, so I can't focus all of my time, on my writing. I still have bills to pay and I'm not making a living on my writing, yet.
I kicked off 2016, by taking Dov S-S Simens, 2-Day Film School, Master Class, through the Hollywood Film Institute. I decided on, the 20 day, streaming version and I completed all of the classes, in 7 days. I'm still working on my 90 page, one location, Script.
This made me reach a little higher and dig a little deeper. I learned more than I knew, before taking it. I never thought about the Director side of making Movies. I never thought about what Camera's are used to make a Movie. I didn't know the process, of creating a Production board.
I'm a writer, I have only focused on creating character's and a great story line. This class, helped me understand the budgeting aspect, better. I have to admit, writing the one location, low budget, 90 page Script, is a challenge. You can't put as much action into it and have to cut back, yet still try make it great. (Yes, I have been ready to bang my head on the table)
One of my goals, is to do Movie Consulting and to get paid for doing it. When I go to the Theater and watch a movie, I find myself, thinking about, what I would have done to make a scene better. I call this a curse, more than a gift, because it makes it harder, to just watch the damn Movie.
As an example, I will be a critic here, I watched about two minutes, of the clip, for Michael Bay's up coming TMNT Movie. I saw something that he missed and should add, that would have gotten people more excited to see it, when it's released. I got up and went to the rest room, to keep myself from watching and analyzing any more of it.
I won't say what it was, because Michael Bay isn't writing me a check, to do that and I refuse to give him any input, on any of his Movie's for free. I'm sure that he wouldn't be willing to pay me to do it, either. Besides, from what I have learned about him, he doesn't like to listen and does things his own way. Obviously it works for him, that's why he makes the big bucks, so what ever floats his boat.
I honestly, can't see myself as a Director, behind a camera, yelling at people and telling them what to do. My passion is giving birth to Character's and creating the life, of a great story line. I guess I'm saying, I won't be running out to rent camera's and trying to Direct anything, just because I completed a 2-day Film School master class.
I'm feeling very positive about 2016, I pray, that God has mercy on my family and that the grieving is behind us, now for awhile. Losing three people close to me, in 2 1/2 years, was very difficult. I had a hard time, brushing myself off and making myself get up and push myself forward. I had to remind myself, they wouldn't want me to live my life, with a broken heart and grieving, because they are gone.
I agree with Dov S-S Simens, you have to leave it all up to God. I can write what ever I want, but at the end of every day, it's what God has planned for me and my writing, is what I have to trust. I believe that God has a reason for me taking them classes or I would never have taken them.
I believe that God makes me dig deeper and reach higher. I have had moments where I pray, that God will take this curse of writing from me, if I wasn't supposed to have it. Then I find myself taking another class or writing something else.
I call it a curse, because when I wake up at 2 am with a story in my head, knowing my alarm will go off in a few hours and I have to go to work, it's torture. I go to work tired and my brain bounces back and forth, between my job and a story, yet I find myself writing again.
What are your personal goals, for 2016. I'm not talking about resolutions, that people usually make and only set themselves up, to fail at. How can you raise the bar on yourself, to reach higher and dig deeper?
Everyone have a great week!
Bobbie
XoXoXo
As 2015 was nearing an end, I was thinking about what I want to accomplish in 2016. I'm always looking for ways to improve myself and to become better, at anything and everything that I do, in all aspects of my life.
I decided to make 2016, the year that I raise the bar on myself. I am making myself reach higher and dig deeper within myself, to fully discover my own potential. My Momma used to tell me, "You will never know what you can accomplish, until you actually try, to accomplish something".
This was my first Christmas without her and I struggled through it. It was hard and I found myself reflecting, on everything she ever taught me and all the little conversations that we had. Some of her advice, I think I never thought about, as she was saying it, because I didn't listen.
Now that my two kids are grown and on their own, I have all this time on my hands, that I never had before. There are so many things that I want to do, to achieve and I know now is the time for me to do it.
I have always been a "Movie Momma" and I love movies. I'm still working on structuring myself, as a writer. To get myself out of my lazy bad habits of not writing. I still have a battle with procrastination, on doing final re-write's. I also work a full time job, so I can't focus all of my time, on my writing. I still have bills to pay and I'm not making a living on my writing, yet.
I kicked off 2016, by taking Dov S-S Simens, 2-Day Film School, Master Class, through the Hollywood Film Institute. I decided on, the 20 day, streaming version and I completed all of the classes, in 7 days. I'm still working on my 90 page, one location, Script.
This made me reach a little higher and dig a little deeper. I learned more than I knew, before taking it. I never thought about the Director side of making Movies. I never thought about what Camera's are used to make a Movie. I didn't know the process, of creating a Production board.
I'm a writer, I have only focused on creating character's and a great story line. This class, helped me understand the budgeting aspect, better. I have to admit, writing the one location, low budget, 90 page Script, is a challenge. You can't put as much action into it and have to cut back, yet still try make it great. (Yes, I have been ready to bang my head on the table)
One of my goals, is to do Movie Consulting and to get paid for doing it. When I go to the Theater and watch a movie, I find myself, thinking about, what I would have done to make a scene better. I call this a curse, more than a gift, because it makes it harder, to just watch the damn Movie.
As an example, I will be a critic here, I watched about two minutes, of the clip, for Michael Bay's up coming TMNT Movie. I saw something that he missed and should add, that would have gotten people more excited to see it, when it's released. I got up and went to the rest room, to keep myself from watching and analyzing any more of it.
I won't say what it was, because Michael Bay isn't writing me a check, to do that and I refuse to give him any input, on any of his Movie's for free. I'm sure that he wouldn't be willing to pay me to do it, either. Besides, from what I have learned about him, he doesn't like to listen and does things his own way. Obviously it works for him, that's why he makes the big bucks, so what ever floats his boat.
I honestly, can't see myself as a Director, behind a camera, yelling at people and telling them what to do. My passion is giving birth to Character's and creating the life, of a great story line. I guess I'm saying, I won't be running out to rent camera's and trying to Direct anything, just because I completed a 2-day Film School master class.
I'm feeling very positive about 2016, I pray, that God has mercy on my family and that the grieving is behind us, now for awhile. Losing three people close to me, in 2 1/2 years, was very difficult. I had a hard time, brushing myself off and making myself get up and push myself forward. I had to remind myself, they wouldn't want me to live my life, with a broken heart and grieving, because they are gone.
I agree with Dov S-S Simens, you have to leave it all up to God. I can write what ever I want, but at the end of every day, it's what God has planned for me and my writing, is what I have to trust. I believe that God has a reason for me taking them classes or I would never have taken them.
I believe that God makes me dig deeper and reach higher. I have had moments where I pray, that God will take this curse of writing from me, if I wasn't supposed to have it. Then I find myself taking another class or writing something else.
I call it a curse, because when I wake up at 2 am with a story in my head, knowing my alarm will go off in a few hours and I have to go to work, it's torture. I go to work tired and my brain bounces back and forth, between my job and a story, yet I find myself writing again.
What are your personal goals, for 2016. I'm not talking about resolutions, that people usually make and only set themselves up, to fail at. How can you raise the bar on yourself, to reach higher and dig deeper?
Everyone have a great week!
Bobbie
XoXoXo
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