My Secret Batttle: Why I Won't Step On a Scale
Stepping on a scale, can be self torture. The moment we look at the number, all kinds of feelings, anxiety and fear of failure, set in. Just looking at that number, causes us to freak out. I stopped stepping on a scale and keeping track of my weight, when my son was six months old. I grew up in a society, where thin was in. It wasn't about being healthy, exercising and eating right. It was about being skinny. I was in middle school and had a basketball coach, that told me if I dropped a few pounds, I'd be able to run faster. I wanted to be a great basketball player, so I started trying to drop my weight down. What happened to me in the process, I became anorexic. I had it drilled in my head; because I convinced myself and let other people's stupid comments get to me, that I had to be 120 pounds. I never let myself go over that weight and stepping on a scale, seeing that number go over, put me in a whirl wind of starvation. I would start fasting, if I saw that numb...